Wednesday, April 11, 2007
To All The Crazies, Just Like Me...
I really want to start my owm clothing store in downtown L.A but first I'd have to find investors and I don't know anything about that. My concept is the same thing that Wasteland is doing except I'd like to sell baby and children"s clothes. From experience I know how fast kids grow out of clothes and how expensive it can be to constantly have to keep up. 9 to 5 jobs aren't exactly where I'd like to be but I'm definitely not to good to do it. Honestly, I'm not at the place I want to be in my life right now. I'm still in the process of letting go of the past. But thankfully I have a place to put all my thoughts, good or bad....right or wrong......sane or crazy............And I'm here, at least I know that..........
Friday, February 9, 2007
In Between These Days
The sun is a star
Flooding space with light
Being a girl is expensive ************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************
Tuesday, February 6, 2007
Grandfather Clock Stopped
Seeing this forgiveness
Giving in
Pushing red to blue
Pulling my hair
Eating his choice
Gathering these moments
Remembering the Father
So what this fight
Taking the bait
Ending the sickness
Seeing the truth
Singing the blues
Drink taste strong
Bending spoons
Boiling memories
Am I now to be thankful
Barely remembering yesterday
While 6 stood for love
And 7 means heaven
Am I to forget
That I knocked so hard
And you pretended to not be home
I'm losing the sadness
Then what will you do
When no one owes you
I know now
Saturday, February 3, 2007
A Silver Mount Zion - God Bless Our Dead Marines (part1)
They put angels in the electric chair
Straight-up angels in the electric chair
And no-one knew or no-one cared
But burning stars lit up their hair
And burning stars lit up their hair
And crawled to heaven on golden stairs
And oh! How we to and fro! To and fro! To and fro!
This is our torched estates
(and we are your sweet mistakes)
And all them vulgar kings on their dirty thrones
Who among us will avenge miss nina simone?
There's fresh meat in the club tonight
God bless our dead marines
Someone had an accident
Above the burning trees
While somewhere distant peacefully
Our vulgar princes sleep
Dead kids dont get photographed
God bless our dead marines
The hungry and the hanged
The damaged and the done
Striving 'long this spinning rock
Tumbling past the sun
Get through this life without killing anyone
And consider yourself golden
Lost a friend to cocaine
Couple friends to smack
Troubled hearts map deserts
And they rarely do come back
Lost a friend to oceans
Lost a friend to hills
Lost a friend to suicide
Lost a friend to pills
Lost a friend to monsters
Lost a friend to shame
Lost a friend to marriage
Lost a friend to blame
Lost a friend to worry and
Lost a friend to wealth
Lost a friend to stubborn pride
And then i lost myself
I love my dog and she loves me
The world's a mess and so are we
She tumbles long green muddy fields
Sick with joy and glee
And as she dreams sweet puppy dreams
Whimpering gently
There's fresh meat in the club tonight
God bless our dead marines
Someone had an accident
Above the burning trees
While somewhere distant peacefully
Our vulgar princes sleep
Dead kids dont get photographed
God bless this century
When the world is sick can't no one be well
But i dreamt we was all beautiful and strong
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
DON'T SMOKE IN BED
AND MY OLD WEDDING RING
WITH THESE FEW GOODBYE WORDS
HOW CAN I SING
GOODBYE OLD SLEEPY HEAD
I'M PACKING YOU IN LIKE I SAID
TAKE CARE OF EVERYTHING
I'M LEAVING MY WEDDING RING
DON"T LOOK FOR ME
I'LL GET A HAND
REMEMBER DARLING
DON'T SMOKE IN BED
DON'T LOOK FOR ME
I'LL GET A HAND
REMEMBER DARLING
DON'T SMOKE IN BED
--NINA SIMONE
Thursday, January 25, 2007
One Amazing Thought.....
Sunday, January 21, 2007
On The Lot Reality Series
I'm actually going to enter this! I wanted to get the word out about this opportunity. There's only two weeks left so you have to hurry. I know it's FOX and all but you never know. Thery're picking 16 contestants for the show. The winner gets voted for and you win a develpmental deal with Dreamworks. Check out the website at www.thelot.com. I guess it's like American Idol but for amateur filmmakers and will be produced by Mark Burnette (Survivor etc.) and Steven Speilberg. Why the shit not?
Saturday, January 20, 2007
I WAS HERE
Expectations worsen.
Changed my reality.
Southern hospitality.
A boy becomes a man.
Blood on your hands.
You on your righteous side.
Black all over your bride.
Sighs and sounds
Bring me back around.
Another year.
I was here.......
Friday, January 19, 2007
Cat Power - I Don`T Blame You
Since I brought up Cat Power the other day, I wanted to include some of her work. Her arrangements are very minimal yet strong and she says her own style is elementary. Her name is Chan Marshall and she's from Georgia, a good soulful Southern girl. I was reading that when she writes lyrics she says, "that it comes out as a stream of consciousness." That reminds me of what Andre Breton, a surrealist writer called "Automatic Writing." I like to write like that sometimes and it's just crazy what comes out after a while when you uncomplicate things and let it breathe. This song is from the album "You Are Free," her sixth release.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
No More Hero's
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
YOU LOOKED BETTER ON MYSPACE
The Wallflowers - Heroes
If you'd like to see some of my work, I dug up a music video I was in. It was for the Godzilla movie soundtrack and performed by the Wallflowers although the original singer is the great David Bowie. This was one of the most demanding jobs I've ever done and I never even had any lines. We filmed at the Orpheum Theatre downtown before it had been renovated. I recently saw Cat Power play there for my birthday, and it was cool to see it again after all this time, they did a good job with it. But it was bloody cold during filming. The wardrobe department wrapped plastic around my body under my clothes because we were filming with a rain machine at night and in the middle of Winter. They had heat machines I could run to after takes but for rain to show up on film it has to come out very very hard. I got sick. But I didn't care.
Half Gifts
The Cocteau Twins are a band I listen to everyday. I was introduced to them 13 years ago by someone who had quite an effect on me. They're from Scotland and were known more in the 80's than they are now. This song is called "Half Gifts," and it's one of my absolute favorites. I resonate to it and I belong to it. It's meaning has changed to me over the years, but it still strikes me so deep. Only music has this power: "I just have to know how to be in the process of creating things in a better way And it hurts but it's a lie that I can't handle it I still have a world of me-ness to fullfill I still have a life, and it's a rich one, even with mourning Even with grief and sadness I still care about this planet I am still connected to nature And to my dreams and myself I have my friends My family I have myself I still have ME." |
Sigur Ros - Glosoli Video
This is the band Sigur Ros. The song is called Glosoli. This music video was filmed in Iceland, which is where they are from, in August of 2005. There is something so special and timeless about they're music that I cannot possibly explain. You will understand when you watch this video. It's heavy with worth. Real emotion. Pure love. I got to witness them play at the Hollywood Bowl in 2001. The lead singer and musician would angelicly strum his electric guitar with a violin bow. At that time I described it as feeling like listening to a space opera. The audience was dead silent and floating together, united. It took my breath. You can see more of them if you go to sigur-ros.co.uk. |
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Internet Killed the Television Star
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
BRING HOME BACON
Saturday, January 6, 2007
BANKSY, street artist changing the world one wall at a time.
As I researched more about him I realize he is no ordinary artist. A person who does not seek fame and has never been photographed unless he's covered. He does not sell T-shirts. He has not become a "brand". And he gives guides on his website on the best boxes to cut your stencils from and tips on explaining yourself to the cops. His work is all over the world, but mostly in London. In 2005 he painted 9 murals on the Palestine side of the Israeli West Bank Wall. One is of children digging through the barrier. Another is of a little girl holding balloons and floating above it all. At the London Zoo, he climbed into the penguin enclosure and painted "We're bored of fish" in 7 foot high letters. You can go to his website at banksy.co.uk/ and see his entire spectrum of mediums. There's so many more works he's done including painting and drawing. The youtube video above details more of his pieces and there is a sublime example of English rap featured from a group called "The Streets", song is "Turn the page." I have to go get that.
It seems to be that BANKSY is either adored or despised. But there is no doubt that his work connects. It is also undeniable to me that street art has become one of the only checks and balances the public has against the owned media or staunch art gallery's. I really get it. Especially in a time where anonymity does not exist, and people will sell their soul's to be famous, it's clear he keeps it about his art and not about himself. He said "The time of getting famous for your name on it's own is over. Artwork that is only about wanting to be famous will never make you famous. Any fame is a by-product of making something that means something. You don't go to a restaurant and order a meal because you want to have a shit."
Thursday, January 4, 2007
Silverlake 101
This is a short I made yesterday of the neighborhood. I had an audition early in the morning for a Lincoln Mercury car commercial, they wanted real photographers for the ad. In theory it was an interesting Idea. I always want to book everything I go out for. That's just the way it goes. But afterwards I rallied around and got some digital scenes of Silverlake. I love the street art and murals and unusual shops. Last night the sunset over the reservoir was reflecting onto itself like a mirror. It looked like flames, ushering in the full moon in cancer shining a silver beam all over Los Angeles like a flashlight. I'm really getting into video blogging and plan on posting more diarist style installations. This one lost quality while I was converting it, but I'm learning. I've experimented with short films before. I shot one in New York called "Normal" and did another called "Japanese Beauty Music" shot on super 8mm while touring behind the scenes with Beck and his band thru Japan. It was one of the best experiences of my life. So I'm really starting to feel this. If you're out there, and you want to see more of L.A.'s culture or whatever, leave a comment. Or if you have some ideas or something cool, then tell me. I want to start posting interviews with artist's too. I acted in a short film last October called "EZRA" with Alex Ebert who is in a band called "Ima robot". He's so talented and terribly handsome. The film is actually quite sad. I took photo's of the set and us in costume and I'm planning on putting something together soon and posting it. I hope I can possibly provide a service or inspire people to start their own blogs. Let the world know your alive. !VIVA SELF EXPRESSION!
A Silver Mt. Zion
This is an epic song to begin the new year with. The NOW is upon us and time likes to have it's own way. It is time to say good bye to the past and peacefully let it be. Time to move forward into the world. Time to become who we are, not were. Time to evolve. Time to let live. Time to let die. Time to let go. So I let go too........
Saturday, December 30, 2006
back yard orange tree and downtown los angeles tonight at dusk.....
This is California. In winter. I love it here. Silverlake is turning out to be an amazing neighborhood. It's East of Hollywood and best known for it's eclectic gathering of the creative community. It's home to many musicians, actors and freethinkers. I remember seeing Rilo Kiley play at Spaceland in the late 90's and of coarse, Beck and Elliot Smith. You can go to clubspaceland.com and listen to all the bands thats headlining there right now. I also got to see one of my favorite bands, Mates Of State play which you must check out lead singer Kori Garner's blog called Band On The [Diaper] Run at babble.com. It chronicles her 2 piece band tour around the world with little 2 year old Magnolia along for the ride. Her husband is fellow band member Jason Hammel. Her blog is just like her, original and refreshing. I really love it. Silverlake is also known for it's man made reservoir which it got it's name from and serves water to South L.A. There's an incredible view of the lake from the hills. It glows. There's also a great little Vietnamese restarant on my corner called Gingergrass and it's bananas good. There's always a line coming out of the place and the noddle bowls are the best. On that same street is Silverlake Wine, and Rockaway Records. I love the sound of a real record player. Both unique places. And I'm happy I don't have to drive so far away to get to the park. Los Angeles is a pain for driving.
These oranges are so ripe and bright. They grow in my back yard. Jasmine is never too far behind. It feels like a warm fall in L.A. It is turning to dusk now as I write with pink and purple glowing over the city and the cold air that comes in at night makes us cozy. The fire. The desert. The palms. The mountains. I am so very far from home and happily so
Friday, December 29, 2006
a place in history
Carry my words
sweet as songbirds
To the ears of someone far.
Right this day
with time's fair play
And a love no purer than ours.
Knowing so well
Paris in pastels
To feel the season's turn cold.
I will always know
there are places I can't go
As the memory begins to lose hold.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
apple breath
A universe beyond for holding the stars
and sleeping on Mars.
That big smile in the morning.
That soft cheek against my own.
Finding out my knowledge needs improvement.
And your breath always smells like apples.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
For ___________
spilling scotch.
speaking french.
numbing up.
i've been to that place.
i've stared at that same ceiling
and drown in that song.
i've eaten that same nothing.
drank that same poison. sweet poison.
doing it's job.
make me forget i was loved .
running. running in the streets.
on fire for you.
i've slept on nails
with that same ghost.
sick from lonliness.
missing the earth.
while they grew in the sun.
i cried tears of whiskey.
you should listen to woody guthrie.
because it's your turn to know.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
I'm not suppose to read tabloid magazines
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Never Before Now
Because I don't know who I am. Because I became all of you. Because I practiced your practice. Because I expressed your language. Because I wore your clothes. Because I learned your rules. Because I played your games. Because I fought your wars.
Now I relax...quietly. Now I listen...closely. Now I remember...peacefully. Now I breathe... slowly. Now I balance... rationality. Now I feel...simply. Now I see...perfectly. Now I communicate... willingly.
And so as I become me. And I return to clay. And I wait for the light. And I listen for a noise. And I realize I am complete. And something just made sense. And that was my first real thought. And I become connected again.